I.. Ugh

A few years ago, I was seeing a psychiatrist because of reasons. Our first few appointments were pretty boring and he was really dismissive of me, but something changed during the last one. The way he was looking at me made me super uncomfortable and he was asking questions that seemed a bit inappropriate. But he didn't really do anything that I could explain to anyone else, it was mostly just a feeling. The day before my next appointment, I was crying with anxiety and cancelled the appointment. I got the answering machine and his assistant never phoned back. I told my mom that I felt he was incompetant.

For years I went back and forth between "he was creepy" and "I was just being avoidant and paranoid". He's just been charged with sexually assaulting six women. One woman said he gave her pills that made her hallucinate so that he could just blame anything she told people on that. I'm shaking and close to tears thinking about those women and I hope they will be okay. I hope he goes to prison and dies.

There was a tumblr post a while ago that I think of alot. It advised girls to trust themselves when they think a guy is creepy but can't explain why, even if their friends go on about how nice he is.

I don't know what else to say right now.