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Haven't made one of these since 2019. I don't know if anyone looks at them, but whatever. There's a lot of articles and such that I was saving, but I think I'll delete most of the COVID related ones. There's probably still some things that resonate even if a bit dated.

Some Substacks I follow (also did Dracula Daily this year)
- Roxane Gay
- Marya E. Gates
- Angelica Jade Bastién
- Zeba Blay
- Arabelle Sicardi

Articles
- Marya E Gates on Losing Ground
- Angelica Jade Bastién on Eve's Bayou
- on abortion memoirs
- on the costumes of Starstruck
- on Freud’s essay The Uncanny and childhood fears
- also Angelica Jade Bastién on (also) Losing Ground
- Diana Athill on death
- Princess Weekes on Anne With an E

Misc Videos
- Another beautiful Liziqi video
- A lovely vlog
- Giant Horse Conch & Burglar Hermit Crabs
- 45,000-Piece Collection of Trashed Treasures Curated by Sanitation Worker
- women in film compilation
- a lovely horror compilation
- on a medieval cookbook
- more on Anne With an E
- Bisexuality: The Invisible Letter "B"

Misc
- Cathode TV (Their Instagram)
- Andrey Avinoff the Fall of Atlantis
- Cosplay Under the Stars: Dorothy McGuire
- museum visitors matching artwork
- the art of Mayumi Oda

Made Sylvia Plaths tomato soup cake, in muffin form. I thought it would be nasty, but I really like it.

A while ago, I was going through a rut. A depression. I decided to watch Hot Shots!, because it was the type of stupid movie I needed at the time. While watching the end credits, I noticed there was a recipe for brownie topping. Turns out, there are two recipes and one is for Nobby Buns. I have no idea why they are called nobby buns, but I love making them. They taste good warm with butter and homemade apple sauce.

Anyway, it made me realize that baking was a good way to get my head in order. Measuring ingredients and what not. Usually I'll make cookies, they are almost always oversized. I don't have the patience to make smaller ones. I guess that's not a bad thing though. Here are the three best cookies I've made so far:

1. Soft oatmeal cookies with cocoa powder and shredded coconut. They didn't really spread and were really thick. The batter broke one of my spatulas. So now I use my hands and it's all messy, but I like it. It was a bastardization of several different oatmeal cookie recipes.


2. Mud cookies. Here is a similiar recipe. I found our recipe while going through some old papers. It's written in green gel pen and I have no idea who wrote it. I baked the cookies for a bit so that they were crispy on the outside. Then I coated them with melted white chocolate. I put them in tins for Christmas. I made these at Harpys place and she was always picking at me, so it was sort of stressful to make them. But they were super yum.


3. I tried to make Oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookies, similiar to these recipes. I had those Oreos with the mint flavoured cream. I realized too late that I had eaten most of them and only had four left. So I broke them into little pieces. I also didn't have as many chocolate chips as I thought, so I used those and cocoa powder. The batter was super sticky and I was really impatient, so I only ended up with 6 large cookies. But they were fucking good. The mint was subtle.

I haven't read any of her books yet, but I've been reading Roxane Gays tumblr. Sometimes she will post sort of a diary where she recounts something she cooked, alongside what is on her mind at the time. I made these cherry brown butter bars after reading this entry (tw: eating disorders). It was the only time where I actually had the ingredients already. I don't have a cherry pitter, so I had to do it by hand. It was messy, but tasty.

I also made these gummy bear cookies. Except with gummy worms cut into peices. They are really pretty, like cookies with stained glass. I dunno. I wasn't too much into the taste, but everyone else liked them. They tasted alot like these cookies my mom used to buy all the time that I hated.

I have never been able to make brownies that live up to my satisfaction. I don't usually bother with icing cupcakes. I never ice cakes.

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For Christmas, I like those candy cane hershey kisses.

At my sisters place. We're having Christmas here this year. I'm on potato peeling duty. 10 pounds of them. We take the mashed potatos (potatoes?) seriously. I had a dream that Mar woke me up to start peeling while it was dark out. Then I woke up for real and it was light out. I actually thought for a moment that I had slept in and we would have to have instant mashed potatoes (potatos?).

I'm the only one up here, and I'm sure everyone at my house is also asleep.

I'm not used to this lap top keyboard.

I was a young nun, or a new nun, I don't know if they have a special name. While I and three other girls were only allowed to eat rice cakes (or something), the head nun got big cinnamon rolls.

[Error: unknown template qotd]Baked beans. I especially hate what they do to the people who eat them.

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I'm okay with most green vegetables. Though I prefer spinach raw. But I hate brussel sprouts. Broccoli is awesome, I have no idea why so many people hate it.

I think I accidently drank some moonshine when I was little. Was gross.

Soy un perdedor,
Hugs and Puppies,
AM